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What I Do When I’m Sad and Blue
I love life when things are going along well and I’m feeling that I am in sync with God and my inner calling. But there are many times when that is not the case, when I face conflict, when I lose someone, when I am anxious about health or finances, or when I don’t feel adequate. At those times I forget most of those well-intentioned practices that work well in times of calm. How can I find my way back to a place of calm, even in the chaos?
I decided to make a list of the things that I have found useful in bringing me back to a state of assurance or less anxiety. I use this list when I’m in a dark place, just to remind me that I don’t need to force myself out of the dark but look into the dark and see where God is and what I am learning.
Seek prayer as my center point: I seek out my quiet place inside, my inner hesychia, the place where God dwells. I may need to go to prayer several times a day when I am in a fragile state, lest I get too far down the path of self-pity, self-hate or blame. I take whatever emotions I have to prayer; anger, sadness, fear, abandonment, revenge. I tell God all about it and journal my feelings. Sometimes I’m mad at God and I need to vent directly to God about my life. What matters is that I am real and vulnerable and authentic while at the same time not wallowing for too long in these emotions.
Experience gratitude: There is always something that I can be grateful for, even in bleak times. Maybe I’m grateful that the sun came up or that my cat sat in my lap. Whatever it is I need to name it so gratitude becomes the foundation of hope in my darkness. I believe in a God who acts and heals, who teaches me how to live while in the darkness. When I look for examples of what God has already done in my life I feel a boost of gratitude.
Keep eternity in view: I try to remember that the big picture of my life may feel very different from the little picture I am living right now, that this dark time is part of a much larger view of my life. God’s view is the long view, the eternal purpose, not just the current mess I’m in. So I ask God to show me how this time is part of that larger purpose so I can stay with this process of growth and healing. As a result I develop more compassion for others.
Expect miracles: There will always be pain. That’s a given. But I can look for and expect joy in the midst of pain. Joy and miracles; people helping and even sacrificing for others; healing and restoration; a willingness to endure for a larger purpose; love growing at a deeper level. If I look for the joy it is more apparent, sometimes in humorous ways, like finding several coins in one day, hearing a song with a special message just for me, or getting a surprise gift.
Reach out to others: I can get out of touch with reality if I get too isolated or too busy. Either is lethal for me! I’ve found that reaching out to others in a loving gesture, like baking for someone, or responding to someone’s needs help put my life in perspective. One day when I was particularly anxious about my life and work I had a call from a person who had just gotten fired. I talked to her for thirty minutes and at the end, I felt better, just because I was able to be present to her.
Secure a team of supporters: It is vital for me to have people I can go to for support, love and care. They need to be good listeners but also a source of accountability and honesty. It helps if they know me well enough not to let me get caught in unhealthy behavior from my past. I need a variety of kinds of support, which include a spiritual director, soul mates, a small support group, a spiritual direction group, church groups, and a centering prayer group. These people hold me accountable without judging me, support me without bolstering my ego and encourage me to take radical risks for God’s sake.
Develop oases: I need places, activities and people that are respites from the storm. I will just list what oases I have developed that work for me. Sanctuaries in nature, intimate friends, quilting, baseball, beauty, creativity, writing, reading, cat-on-my lap time, coffee shops, being with twenty somethings, music, and retreats.
Pursue self-care: Especially in times of great loss or stress I need to up the ante on my self-care. I’m fortunate to have several practices of self care in place so it is just a matter of doing them more, but I’ve found when my body knows that I’m caring for it, it responds better to all the stress around me. These need to be low cost, like walking, exercises, rest, healthy food, quilting, movies, rest between activities, silence and prayer, therapeutic message, back rubs, humor, being with friends.
Practice forgiveness: I try to work continuously on letting go of resentment, remorse, and revenge. These emotions result in various bodily aches and pains. I process the feeling and the person, pray over it, and let time help me heal. Sometimes I go more deeply into the experience and use a ritual of healing to complete the work. Then I can either release the toxic people or make amends. The most important person for me to pray for and forgive is, of course, myself.
Finding God and healing in the darkness: I find God most in the darkness when I cease striving to just get out of the darkness. These are the paradoxes that have shed the most healing light on my path. It all begins in my own heart and soul, nowhere else. That is the place to begin the process.
© Janet O. Hagberg, 2009. All rights reserved.
Reflecting on this essay
When you get sad and blue what do you do that is most helpful?
Which new things do you think would be useful to you?
What is most likely to trigger your sad or blue times?
How do you experience God in these times?